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DearestDearest one, are you doing okay
I think about you almost every day
The rose that you gave me has faded
You left long ago, and I waited
I sat by the window, waited for you to show
I cried more tears than you will ever know
And somehow in this darkness, a light I could see
Though you're far away, you're still here with me
It's the way my heart skips when I hear your name
It's the sound of rain hitting the window panes
Every time I hear the door bell ring, I run to see
If It's you, but it never turns out to be
And it's so hard to sleep alone at night
Without you here to hold me tight
But in my heart is where you'll always be
Red ribbon laced around my memories
You're so far and yet you're so close
I miss you more than you'll ever know
So I saw you out the other day
I couldn't find the words to say
You said "It's not the end of the world", my fear he noticed
"I'll see you again, I promise"
So it's been a few days since that fateful day
Sitting here wondering about what to say
I keep waitin
Why I Always take a JacketWhen I was younger my mom always said to me:
"Take a jacket when you leave the house.
You never know when it's going to be cold."
I listened to her request and took a jacket
Because I wanted to be warm at nighttime.
When a few years passed I realized something;
Sometimes a couple would walk past me
But it was obvious that one person wore a jacket
That belonged to the other person.
I thought it was weird but shrugged it off moments later.
During my adolescent years I got a little jealous.
I found out that giving a person a jacket meant something.
It meant that you cared for said person
And you wanted them to be warm.
This got me wondering: Did other people care for me?
Questions like that made me evaluate myself.
My mom bought me the jackets I wear so that I stay warm,
So that meant she loves me.
After calming myself with this fact,
I snuggle into my own jacket and carry on with my life.
It's cold. Shivers run through me repeatedly.
I forgot my jacket.
Everyone else is laughing and havi
Too LateEarlier, I had a vision
Of my father calling me
After years of not speaking
I was surprised as could be
“Hey,” he greeted softly
“I know it’s been a while
“I have something to tell you.”
I just sat there, without a smile
“You’re twenty-one years old
“And I know I’ve missed a lot
“But listen closely, now
“You’re the only daughter that I’ve got.”
“I’ve appreciated you from the beginning
“I’m sorry I didn’t show it much
“My selfishness blinded me
“It’s definitely my worst crutch.”
“I want you to know you’re beautiful
“I never told you that once
“I regret it now and forever
“Man, I’m such a dunce!”
“And I wouldn’t forget to mention
“How intelligent that you are
“You’re IQ is higher than mine!
“I know that you’ll go far.”
“You have so much potential
I hear it all
What you screech
Every line repeats
Until I fall in my defeat
Can I ever stop
The barrage of words
That crumples me down
Onto the floor?
What gives you the right
To drag my face through dirt?
Why, oh why do I listen to you,
Who brings so much hurt?
Your words bring tears,
Heat rising to my face.
I run out in humiliation,
Sobs coming as I race.
My heart is bleeding
My ears are ringing
My chest is pounding
My sorrow astounding
I can't take it
Enough is enough
The smile is cracked
The mask now gone
I'm finally beaten
Is that what you want?
I'm just a human
I'll never live up
Never reach what yo
Are running out
Like the future
That my heart
My black eyes
Her gorgeous march.
Breaking my hopes
Was our last
She ran away
My life turned grey
Living a plastic life
It’s easy to watch
An entire society
Like bricks in a wall.
Let me stay
Here with you.
I don’t belong
There to them
It was a mistake
Believe that I
My tears spillMy missing you,
my wanting you,
my needing you still,
my tears spill.
it´s all been said before,
you´d just walk in the door.
My love for you,
my dreams of you
oh if it could only be,
then I´d turn back the hands of time
and you´d still be here with me.
By Suzanne Karbach 19th July 2014
Wedding VowToday, my love, I lay my hand in thine
And vow to spend forever at thy side
The path that lies ahead of thee now mine
My strength to bear thy cares and match thy stride
Today, my love, I wear thy wedding ring
I pledge devotion, heart and soul, to thee
I share what joys and sorrows time will bring
And cherish thee for all eternity
Today, my love, I pledge myself thy wife
And take thee as the husband of my heart
I gift thee all the moments of my life
That nothing in this world tear us apart
Keep your head up.The weight of the world is sitting on your shoulders,
crushing you down,
and making you smaller.
The more you struggle,
the heavier it gets.
My advice is:
Keep your head up.
When it pushes,
And when the world gets the message,
you will fly.
And when you fly,
you will finally understand what it means to be alive.
And that is,
to keep your head up,
and look at the challenge without flinching,
and once you rein dominance,
you hand it over to another that is giving up.
No one deserves what you previously felt.
Secrets and PromisesI am here because of the past,
Because of a promise that is endeavored to be kept.
I can only hope that this dread won't last.
Since the past is also what's killing me the most.
But no one knows,
What goes on in my head.
The painful woes,
That have not yet gone away.
Secrets that can not be shared,
Buried deep, and very far.
Only if anyone cared,
But God knows no one ever will.
Hiding the truth may never feel right,
But I am only doing it for the best.
I am not going to win this fight,
For what is left of me, I'm broken.
FirefliesLittle stars do twinkle
On this warm summer night
A smile spreads across your face
Your grin a flash of white
You catch them in your hand
Your eyes light in their glow
Wondering of where they've been
While you're stuck here down below
Your innocence so captivating
If only it would stay
But no, for you will grow
Just as we all did one day
Little child keep shining
Don't let your spark burn out
Keep dreaming of these fireflies
These nights you laugh so loud
Innocence is hard to find
A treasure that many lose
Grip it now, please hold it tight
And keep it close to you
Remember how you were
In your carefree childhood days
For soon enough you will grow
Sweet ignorance fades away
I wish that I could tell you
And make you understand
That precious gift that you have
Will be soon ripped from your hand
But no, for I couldn't bare
To see that done to you
Maybe though you'll be the one
To make such hopes come true
A hope of dreams made real
A hope of a heart kept whole
A hope that your spark won't
I embrace my heart and I see
your deep eyes
and no lies
Your soft lips
I see the opened door and
I see my friends
and nothing ends
I feel alive
I want to thrive
I see a butterfly and
Nature is so fragile
So very beautiful
Life follows no rules
Nothing to ridicule
I see your jacket on my bed and
I smell your skin
I feel your kiss again
Your gentle voice
I was your choice
The ring on my finger is
So very meaningless
It was a hit & miss
I need an item that`s real
Because of how I feel
There`s a photo album on the floor
I see your smiles
A time worth while
I danced with that boy
But I was his toy
Now I have ask "when"
And I have my friends
My eye gazes at the closet door
You aren`t there right now
You were, but now not found
You left for home a few minutes ago
Sometimes I wish you`d never go
All Here For A ReasonI turned onto a shady, well-manicured driveway that, for all intents and purposes, looked harmless enough. Maple trees lined both sides of the street, and a parade of Canadian geese marched across the road to a wide duck pond with a flamboyant fountain. There were blooming crepe myrtles and rose-of-sharons, and as I grew closer to my destination, neatly trimmed gardens with neatly trimmed bushes.
I stopped to let the geese pass. They looked at me; one hissed. I honked my horn and moved around them.
At the end of the road sat a collection of grayish buildings and a number of signs directing me to the appropriate parking lot. "Welcome to Ten Creeks Hospital," said one of them. "Please enjoy your stay." I parked in the visitor's lot. Surely I wouldn't be staying.
I was shaking when I got out of my car. I had spent the morning getting high. One foot in front of the other, flip-flop noises, hot sidewalk. Mulberry and magnolia trees, freshly shaved grass. A bench and pan for smokers. A set o
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